I just want to go back to when things were easier. I want to have my own place, live with my best friend, live in the same city as my boyfriend, and have a decent job. Is that too much to ask?

Oh the awkwardness

I had an awkward talk with my boyfriend last night (rather, early this morning). It was a conversation that needed to happen if this relationship is to continue, but it was still uncomfortable. For me, probably not as much for him.

Also, I'm a little sore today. My neck, arms, and side are hurting. Well, not hurting. They are stiff and sore. I can deal, hopefully it will go away soon.

Oh the good note, I just got a raise today. Yay!!
Of course, I am planning on leaving there soon, but still, more money is kind of awesome.

Update

So, the boy I mentioned? Yeah, we are official now :)

Things have been really good, and I'm really excited about it.

About a boy

There is a boy that I kind of like. He is not someone that I would normally consider dating, but I like hanging out with him. He is fun to talk to. He is very nerdy, like me, which is good. How far do I let my feelings go?

I was finally given a deadline. I have only a short time to figure anything out. Let's see what I can get done. Also, I'm going to start studying for the GRE again, because as soon as I can get the money, I'm going to take it. Can't do grad school without it.

I'm really not sure how much more of this I can take. I am just so very scared right now. I don't know what is going to happen.

Okay, all of my energy is going toward positive thinking that something good is going to happen within the next couple weeks.

I'm tired. Tired of doing so much, with nothing to show from it. I just want to give up, but  I can't. And I am really worried.

Going to try for ANOTHER job tomorrow. I hope it goes well.

The agony contines

Just received my rehearsal schedule for the show I got cast in for April. There is going to be some afternoon rehearsals, because everyone has such a diverse class/work life. People have to give a little, apparently. This is going to screw up my "trying to find a job" schedule. Not sure what I am going to do. I would hate to give up the play, but...maybe it is for the best?

Another Case of the Worries

Our apartment flooded last night when our toilet overflowed. It covered the bathroom, most of the hallway, went into the closet next to the bathroom, the closet at the other end of the hall, and into the bedroom, including the closet there.

It was kind of my fault that this happened, accident, but still my fault. I have been unemployed for two months now. I have applied to lots of places. 2 of the those places rejected me, I gave my information to 4 places for them to call me if they have a vacancy. Waiting to hear back on the others.

I don't really have money. I got to babysit last week. I had split the money between groceries and the rest to my roommate for rent/utilities/whatever. The little money I had left over after buying a small load of groceries, I gave to my roommate after the flood happened.

The utilities bill we just got was still high, lower than the previous one though. I already have a phone bill that late, plus another one due soon.

I have got to find a job soon. Or else I'm fucked.

Guilty Pleasures

So, a couple of weeks ago, I made a deal with a friend that if she would watch Dead Poets Society (a movie I recently fell in love with), I would Teen Wolf (a show she recently fell in love with). I thought I would only watch one season, but now I have started season 2. I don't know what it is about this show, but I'm kind of addicted to it now. Not really because it is a good quality show, but because some of the characters are just very adorable. My favorite character is Stiles. Stiles is the best friend to Scott, the werewolf. He has a lot of adorable and sarcastic lines. It is funny to watch him. Especially when he is around his crush or his dad (his dad is the sheriff). Derek is my eye candy (the actor is the same age as me, so I can like him and not feel creepy). Jackson reminds me of a teenage Dean Winchester. Allison (Scott's girlfriend) is pretty cool. She knows archery. Lydia pretends to be the typical preppy girl, but she is actually smart, and I am interested in seeing more of her story. There are other characters, but I don't want this to be a long post.