Don't you ever wonder what will happen when it ends?

I've been feeling kind of sad lately. I mentioned before that I just finished my fourth year of college. A lot of the people that I  started college with have graduated now, or are about to graduate. I have decided to stay on for another two years. I could graduate in 3 semesters, but I'm not sure that I want to. I told myself that I didn't want to do a December graduation because I thought it would be easier on my parents since there is usaully a lot of ice around that time, and I also thought that it would be better for me to just finish off a complete year. But, I'm still conflicted.

I'm scared to see my school years end. I'm scared to face the real world. But I know that I will have to do it sooner or later. I keep feeling like all of my friends are moving on with their lives. They have some plan of what they want to do. But I feel like I am stuck in the same place. Am I really stuck or did I just put myself in a "sticky" situation? I don't really have a plan. I mean, I am planning on moving back in with my best friend after I graduate, find a job, and find a theater to audition for. Then, I will probably move with her to North Carolina. The east coast has lots of acting opportunities, I have been told. I think the reason I want to go with her is because I don't want to be on my own. As I said, I am scared to be on my own. And also because she is my best friend and I am not ready to part with her yet. There are just so few friends that you stay friends with for the rest of your lives.

Have I become too dependent? Am I just attaching myself  to someone so that I will have a place to go? I had another idea of getting a second degree. And I also really want to go to Europe. But how do I plan for something like this? I lived a somewhat sheltered life. My family wasn't able to do much. I don't just want to be stuck in my hometown for the rest of my life. I want to go out and see what's there. But I don't know how to do that. I don't know how to start. So, it scares me.

I should really just stop thinking about it and just concentrate on what I have to do now. But it's hard for me.
Those of you who are reading this blog, and are out in the "real world", do you have any advice for me on how to plan for life outside of school? Any words of wisdom that will comfort me in my time of need?

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