Rant #2

About a week ago, I was in the fit working out my arms. I've been doing a certain amount of reps, so I always count to make sure I do all of them when working on my arms. A guy from one of the campus ministries I used to go to was working out there as well and started talking to me. He was asking me if I still went to the ministry or another ministry I was a part of or if I had a church here that I go to. I gave my normal excuse that I am busy and haven't had a chance to go to anything. Here is what was going on in my head as he was talking to me:

1) Dude, I am trying to count here, so please leave me alone.

2) I have a bunch of things going on.

3) Okay, so I'm not really that busy, I just don't really feel like going.

I stopped going to the campus ministries because I am really burnt out on them, as well as being burnt out on church in general. I haven't been spending time in my Bible, or praying, or listening to any of my christian music. But a lot of people don't know that because they don't ask. At least, they don't ask how I am really doing. They ask if I am still going to stuff. But I can't remember the last time someone asked about my spirituality or even about health in general. Granted, even if they did, I probably wouldn't answer completely right away, but if you kept showing that you care long enough, I will tell you the truth, as far as I can anyways. Sometimes I don't even know where I am in life.

I'm not saying all this because I am mad at somebody or because I want sympathy or because I want to see who my "real" friends are. This is just something that I needed to get off my chest.